It's already 4:28 AM and I  am so bored with my life so I started making a blog here in blogger.com.  I know that I will not be able to post here often because I already frequent my other blogs but then I realized that maybe I can use this blog to stalk read some interesting blogs here.

So...how to start this self-intro.

I am Estella Meredith, 22, years old, struggling writer, novelist wannabe, jobless bum and an extreme fangirl.  I used to be an extreme fan of Arashi and Hey! Say! JUMP. They will always be special to me of course. I've been an Arashi fan for seven years now and I've known Hey! Say! JUMP since they debuted back in 2007 but then they lost their appeal for me since I started loving SMAP. Ah, SMAP. Don't get me started with SMAP.

I used to adore and worship anime but I stopped watching them. I can't clearly explain the reason but there are anime out there that I will love forever like Fullmetal Alchemist, AnoHana (whole title is too long, so lazy to search it and paste it here), Another, Rurouni Kenshin and Fushigi Yuugi. I read some manga too like Parfait♥Tic, Oboreru Knife, Watashi ni xx Shinasai! and Kagerou Days.

I love reading and watching horror stuff. I had also read a lot of horror manga and Junji Ito is my favorite horror mangaka. Don't get me wrong, I may love horror but I get scared easily when night comes and I am the only one awake.  Actually, I can't sleep alone in a dark room. I am afraid of a lot of things like spiders, heights, and getting on in an airplane.

I am more hooked now in japanese dramas, especially those dramas where Kimura Takuya was the lead. I am also currently addicted to british shows like Sherlock and Doctor Who. I also love Supernatural and I am trying to finish it until Season 8 before it will come out of hiatus.

I have also written a lot of fanfictions of my favorite pairing in Fullmetal Alchemist and also my favorite idols' non-existent love lives.Well, I don't know if I can say that I am really passionate when it comes to writing. I love writing, yes and it's my dream to become a writer (alongside dreaming to become a scientist) since I was in elementary but I am a very lazy person and I hate being pressured when it comes to the things that I love. I only write when I want to. I am afraid when it comes to being pressured into writing because I may hate it one day and I never want that to happen.

I planned to take Biochemistry or anything related to a science course in college but then something happened during my high school days so I ended up taking Journalism. I don't want to say that I regret taking that course and going to that university because I met my wonderful college friends there but then a part of me keeps telling me that I should have taken a course like Creative Writing or Literature and I should have gone to a better university.

It's been a year and two months now since I graduated but I still don't have a stable job. I was almost hired four times already but the universe must hate me so much because some events always happens whenever those jobs are within my grasp.

My dream job is to work in a library or a bookstore. I don't care if the salary is just enough for me. I want to live simply. I dream of having a small apartment that I will fill with books.

I love reading so much. When I was a child, I was so book deprived that I started reading textbooks with stories in them. I even put them in stacks and created my imaginary library. I also used to read magazines and comics like K-Zone, W.I.T.C.H., Monster Allergy and Culture Crash. It was only when I was in college that I was able to collect so many english novels and tagalog romance pocketbooks.

I didn't know that I will get so addicted in reading those tagalog pocketbooks because for me, they are corny and so baduy that they will just make me shiver in disgust BUT THEN, when my cousin's girlfriend started renting pocketbooks in a nearby computer shop, I got so curious so I read a couple of books and I got hook right away. I was in second year high school back then...oh wait, I can't remember who really got me into reading tagalog pocketbooks. All I remember is my some of my friends are bringing their pocketbooks in school and we read them secretly during our Filipino subject.

I can say that I became a writer of PHR by accident. I send my manuscript a year ago as a joke to myself. I never expected that I will be able to finish one and that it will get accepted. Of course, I am so happy that I will finally have a published story it's just that I was also gripped by an extreme fear and embarrassment by that fact. My second and third novels were also accepted immediately. My fourth one got unlucky. But I am trying my best to finish my fifth.

I don't know where this writing business will get me but I hope I will be able to continue writing stories no matter what.


(I might add things here from time to time. I am so sorry kung sobrang haba at paulit-ulit lang pinagsasasabi ko dito at kung mali-mali grammar. Antok na talaga ako at tinatamad akong iedit siya. Di ko rin alam kung bakit ako nageenglish, omg 5:53 AM na)

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